So...this is to be a return to the old ways. just for a moment.
*sigh*
here it goes:

random synapses fire. along the neon lines, riding the concrete jungle in a tangled mess somewhere between existence and inebriation. I live for this mess, this spangled rot tinted against my flesh, rotting corpse set to life by flame.

this passion released inside of me burns with hunger. satiation never comes, fulfillment never lingers. i am left with an ache, a gaping wound filled to the brim with starvation for more.

i have realized at this point that this will never cease. there is a certain portion of grey matter that wishes a vacation would fix this course of nature, these lonely nights wandering the lamp-lit halls in the darkest corners of this translucent shell. the other side is exactly that: the Otherside.

i am not ashamed of this behavior. running with my back towards the electrified spikes racing in the air, washed in the colors of the overhead rainbows. it brings me peace and comfort, life in the darkness that is the jockey's existence.

the Otherside, on the other hand, is searching. for a familiar face, some seedy underbelly of love and respect. devotion of some kind. anything to pull my face forward and stare down death, the very thing that was keeping me alive.

sometimes i see this face, random synapses firing in the right side of my already shattered cranial capacity. it's always bathed in the right light, guiding me towards whatever fate the slowly approaching fiber optic shards bring for me. it makes me stand up, stop running away, be a "real man".

othertimes, it makes me hurt. and that is why i keep running.

Okay. so...it's going to take a long while to explain that one. but boy did it feel good to get that out. I'm sure I'm going to sit here and promise you an explanation,
and it probably won't come. But I'm not going to say it, because you all know it.

So there.
God is great, life is good, kitty is amazing as ever. I love my wife. :)
That would be enough said for tonight.
I'm off to read new evangelion.

--fin.--

soooo....haven't been here in a few days. I've been preoccupied with Twilight, ice skating, buying skates, rockin out in Nashville, getting inked and swollen/infected, watching Juno, wanting a baby, downloading lots of indie-folkish type music, etc.

Just living life I suppose. Part of me really does want a kid right now, just do it and have fun, see what God brings.

But then....common sense rolls in and I remember that, as of right now Robin and I can barely take of each other comfortably. :) That really does put a damper on my dreams. But I always try and remind myself that no matter how much I may want one right now, we have a lifetime of love and devotion, and SEX.

We all be good.

Pray my arm doesn't shrivel up and die, and that I can learn how to skate. :)

--geof.out.--(fin.)

hey all. from another state.

i miss home. my wife. my kitty. my life.

it's cold. i have new music. i also have figured out what yo gabba gabba is.and honestly....it's really not that bad for what it is.they had the aquabats on. that makes it semi-cool.

i'm going to eat. and have a beer. and chillax.

i love my robin-bird-otterqueen.

--fin.--

So. I'm in my new home. The wife is out doing laundry, but will be home soon.

We just got internet, cable, and our first home phone installed. I can has excitedness? :)

Life is good. A little stressful right now, but once things get figured out, I'll be fine. :)

God is good. Er...excuse me. God is the best there ever could be. My wife is a close second. :)

--fin.--

laying in bed.

at my parents house.

moving in tomorrow.

my back already hurts. :(

but hey. at least its a home. :)

i love my wife. and my life. and my jesus. and miss my lucifer cat. oops...i mean franklin. :)

--fin.--