He who overcomes will be gowned in white, and I will not take his name from the Book of Life; I will give witness to His name before my Fathers and before his Angels...

Revelations 3:5

I’m everywhere
There’s nothing I can’t see or find
I’m nowhere
There’s not a person on the Earth who knows me
But always
I’m right beside you
My father loved me
God loved me
That man loved me
But all I wanted was you
Because you made me real
You saw me
When no one else did
And you brought me
Into your world
Of lights sound and color
It was so alive
But what was most alive
Was you
More beautiful than any neon sign
I was so small
So young
So foolish
But I did know
That you were special
I don’t think it’s my fault
That things turned out the way they did
Some things
Some things are unchangeable
I’m so sorry I made you suffer
And that’s why I’m glad I left
I never wanted to see you in pain
And yet
That’s all I caused you
And maybe I’m not real
But I have a heart
Because you showed it to me
When I told you I loved you
Before it all shattered
I tried to make it right
But still I wanted to cry
I didn’t want to leave you
I didn’t understand then
Now I know
I never will
I want to follow you everywhere
Even through death
I might able to do it if I tried
but no matter what
I’m by you forever
I’m at peace
And I’m real

Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith is now in theaters. Absolutely amazing piece of film. Hats off to Master Lucas. All I am going to say is this:

Do not lightsaber duel for more than a consistent hour. Injuries will happen. I have first hand experience. Pain is not fun, not it is not.

The novel is great; for about twenty-bucks you can carry the wonderful rendition of this masterpiece in your satchel, wherever your Jedi missions take you. I highly recommend both. As well the first two prequel novels...and the Trilogy novels.

You will buy them and read them all in order.

That is all. Full update coming soon, once I figure things out. Lots of things are happening, and it's all rather strenuous. Much I cannot disclose at this point in time, but soon. Very soon.

Patience, young Padawans. Eagerness, anxiety: lead to the path of the Dark Side do they. Be mindful of what is, not what is to come.

Remember: We must learn to release what we fear to lose.

Life is interesting. My shrine to the amazing wonderment known as Star Wars Has been officially set up, and visits may be made Monday-Friday, 10 am-4 pm. Life is s****y right now, but when is it not. The only good thing is that I saved $10 on the new Team Sleep record, which was lovingly packaged and sent to my care by none other than Maverick Records themselves.

I heart them.

Thursday, 12:02 am, May 19th, I will be in the theater watching the final episode in the epic saga of the Star Wars Universe. It will be highly enjyable. I expect to cry. This seems to be the second only-good thing going on in my life right now.

I don't quite know how to think of myself any longer. I have no hope left in my own personal being. I have placed no hope in my actions, that they will suffice until something better decides to stroll along my path. I don't know how to act with myself, and react to others to create healthy situations. I have the love of another, but that does one no good until they have the love of themself. And I'm afraid that I will lose the only love I have, for I will, most likely, never love myself. You cannot recieve love if you cannot give it. I hvae never experienced it in my being, therefore I cannot give, erego, none shall be recieved.

I hate this.

8 days and counting.

GITS Fanfic.

One of my favourites lately. I like this site. I'm partial to fan-fictions. Especially ones that revolve around romantic interests of characters in my shows, as well as containing a healthy dose of what makes the show, the show. Basically, something that takes the characters and puts them in completely new situations, but keeps the whole feel in character.

Fascinating, to say the least. And no, I do not have a life.

"Cyberspace. A consensual hallucination experienced daily by billions of legitimate operators, in every nation, by children being taught mathematical concepts...A graphical representation of data abstracted from the banks of every computer in the human system. Unthinkable complexity. Lines of light ranged in the non-space of the mind, clusters and constellations of data. Like city lights, receding..."

-William Gibson, Neuromancer

I memorize the words to the porno movies, this is a new religion to me...

Nothing is what it seems.